Running out of straws...

It's day 4 and I still have not spent a dime. I think this first week is going to be a breeze. I'm not even feeling any credit card withdraw.... Unless the fact that I am looking forward to going to the eye doctors on Friday just so I can get that feeling of swiping my card and signing the little slip of paper one more time counts. Then maybe I'm feeling it a little.

Right now I think my biggest challenge is getting back to eating healthy. All I have in my house is carbs and ingredients to bake more carbs. Take last night for example. For dinner I ate a box of stuffing. That's it. No meat, no veggies no nothing. Just me and a big ol' plate of stuffing. As I was making the stuffing, I knew it didn't make any sense, but clearly I didn't care enough to stop. Smh... got to do better. Maybe I'll take a page from the book of Rolea and set up a short term goal. Something simple, something attainable,  hmmm.... Ok, here's one. For the rest of this week, I'm just going to drink my shakes. No real food til Saturday. NO EXCEPTIONS!  Damn, in my mind I'm already cheating cause I'm thinking about the change I scrounged up this morning for the vending machine. It's like I've failed before I even started... FML

So what's all this got to do with straws? Nothing really, but I am running out of straws, literally. This morning, when I realized that I was down to my last few, I was trying to decide if I would buy more when I ran out, or is this something I would sacrifice for the sake of this whole exercise in self discipline. Yeah I know it seems insignificant, but it starts with the small things. And that's what this is all really about. It's nice to be able to travel, go out to eat and things like that and know that my bills will still be paid, but it may not always like this. I need to know that if times get hard, I won't have a problem giving up all the extra stuff and just getting back to the basics.  At the same time this is also kind of my punishment for blowing my budget for the past 7 months in a row unnecessarily. Oh well, I'll just suck it up. Nothing lasts for ever.