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OMG I'm so bored right now. I'm sitting here clock watching and I got like freaking 3 HOURS to go! I can't. So I decided to blog in the meantime. Maybe this will kill 20 minutes if I'm lucky. But what to talk about?
...?...?... Ok got something.

Earlier this week, or maybe late last week, I can't remember, I was having a conversation with someone about investments. Not the typical type of investment that you may think, say in terms of money or the stock market. But emotional investment. It just so happened that the whole money and stock analogy fit in very well. So questions to you all (all 2 of you) is what determines if you become emotionally invested in a person? Is it by choice? Involuntary? or a combination of both? How do you keep from making bad investment decisions? Stocks? bonds? Mutual funds? Do you diversify your portfolio and invest in multiple areas?

Personally I have never found myself invested in more than one opportunity (or in-opportunity) at a time. That might be the one area I'm incapable of multitasking at. In terms of the voluntary or involuntary, eh, I'm not sure. For example, if I meet a nice guy (or more realistically someone who ain't shit) maybe get to know them a little and there is something that I find attractive about them, you might be able to say that I "like" them, at least a lil. Call it a crush, or infatuation I don't really care. But I would consider the attraction part involuntary. Of course this doesn't equal investment. However, the climate for investment opportunities just got that much more favorable simply off of attraction.

In my mind though, just because I like you, that doesn't mean a damn thing. Doesn't mean I'd date you. Doesn't mean I'll sleep with you. It doesn't even mean I'mma talk to you. It means nothing. It just is what it is. If nothing comes from it, I'll get over it. Then it's on to the next one (which out here could be months if not years in between).

Now as for poor investment decisions, I definitely have my fair share in the past, comparatively speaking. Pretty much every guy I have ever invested in has either played me or turned out to be a disappointment in one way or another. It's really only recently that I feel I might actually be learning from these mistakes. The only problem with learning from them is that it may make it that much more difficult for the next dude to get any sort of buy-in.

Before I kind of always wanted a relationship. Or I was in some way searching for someone whether it be actively or passively. Today though, I think I can honestly say IDGAF. Single, not single - who cares. No dates in idk how long - so what. Nothing but lames and losers trying to get at me (if anybody at all) - pfft whatever. I'm done caring about this stuff. It could be this attitude that ultimately causes me to be some kind of childless, manless old maid/cat lady with no cats. Eh... F it. Right now I'm good with me. I have a stress free, drama free, carefree, responsibility and obligation free life. I can do whatever the hell I want. That right there, sounds pretty damn good to me.

But back to investments... I'm not opposed to investing. Not at all. I just need to find a good stable mutual fund. Maybe I should seek the help of a financial adviser. So when the time comes to plan for retirement, I can invest wisely. Until then, I may research the opportunities that come my way. Maybe drop a couple dollars here or there, just nothing I can't afford to lose if the market crashes.

This, That and The Other...

When I first started this blog, I was doing really well. Now it seems like I fell off. I think that one of my (many) problems is that I freestyle with my time way too much. All of the things that I want to do and need to do need to be scheduled. Not only scheduled, but done at the scheduled time. No more flexibility like I been doing, cause then stuff doesn't get done.

Granted I'm single, no kids, no boo, so I feel I can do whatever I want whenever I want and the only person it affects is me. But it's getting to a point where this just isn't working. I need some order in my life. Its time to get it together. Not tomorrow, or this weekend or next week, but NOW. So what can I do right now to bring some order to my life? Ummmmm.... gimme a min to think about this.

Ok, I got it. I once saw or read or heard this thing by Chalene Johnson where she talked about goals. And one of the tips she gave was really simple... Make a list.

So starting today I'm going to make a list every day of everything I want to do. I'm even going to schedule a reminder in my phone and block out some list making time. Then I'll post back here in a week to see how it worked out... lemme schedule that in my calendar too while I'm thinking about it.

In other news...

I'm BROKE! idk what in the hell I been doing, but it has been WAAAAAY too much. I will be FORCED to sit my ass down at the end of the summer cause all my lil spending money is bout to be GONE! On the other hand, I definitely can't say that I have been bored. In the past couple months I've done more shopping than I have this entire year. I have kicked it in phx 3 times (no gen pop) and spent a week in Jamaica. Now I have Miami and Hawaii coming up plus Kat Williams is gonna be in Phoenix all in the next couple months. After that I'm going underground not to be heard from for at least a month (LiesItell).

On another note though... I don't know if I've ever mentioned it in this blog, but I have been facilitating classes at Tucson Pole Fitness for the past maybe 3 months or so. When I originally offered to do it, I told Jess (the owner) that I'd do it for free if I could take classes for free. And she was cool with that. I'm actually still cool with that, but yesterday when I went in to teach, I saw a note on the clip board and under it was a check. She actually paid me! Now granted it isn't much (it is maybe enough to put gas in my car) but it's just something about getting paid to do something that you would do for free regardless, ya know? It makes me wonder what it would be like to be able to live off of doing something I completely enjoy. Definitely some food for thought.

And with that, Ciao for now.

Recap...

Whew! it's been over a month since I blogged. Figured I'd do a lil recap in light of the fact that it's been a while. But seeing as how I have no life, this should be quick...

I finally got that new phone last month that I was itching to get so dagon badly a couple months back. I've had it for almost a month. The Evo Shift. Yeah, I think I'm bout to shift this mug right on back to the store tho. Why the hell did it crap out on me this morning? I was trying to make a phone call and all I got was a blank screen. Then it just sat there for a minute and wouldn't respond to ANYTHING. Eventually it force closed. This happened like twice. Now I've had other apps fail on me and didn't think much of it. But keeping in mind that this is a phone, making phone calls really should be the one function that it excels at over all others, right? Exactly. Back to the store it goes. The crappy part of my whole phone episode is tho, I was on the sprint web site this morning and they have a new phone coming out soon... smh, I knew I shouldda waited. But no, I just had to have a phone. Maybe one day I'll learn... maybe. 

What else? Oh I took a little trip to Seattle last month. Man, if I knew whose idea that one was, I might have some words for them. It was COLD and it SNOWED. I was so not prepared. All in all the trip was ok, but I do feel like I spent bunch of time sitting around doing a whole lotta nothing. Like literally just surfing the web or snacking or twiddling my thumbs. I did get to see the space needle tho. Can't say I thought much of it. It was freezing windy and sleeting/freezing raining out. Try taking a picture in that. I did...

Me freezing my ass off

Que mas? Oh right. The whole teaching thing. That hasn't completely come to fruition yet. But it's moving along. I did do an intro class a few weeks ago and that went pretty well. I'm supposed to pick up Thursday classes starting this week, but I still have no routine put together. So I have to work on that today. I think I may leave here early (here being work) and go exchange my phone and then head home to work on my routine. Seems like such a waste of gas coming in today just to turn around and leave. But work wise, I really don't have anything to do. Which reminds me...

I am moving to a new department!!! So long SVT and cranky old people. Unfortunately that also means so long to my work homie who makes things bearable around here. All we do is sit around and come up with conspiracy theories about how we're about to be screwed over and talk a whole bunch of shit... aaahhh, good times. It's not official yet, so I may need not start my chicken counting before I end up with rotten eggs.

Guess that pretty much sums it up. Here are some things to look forward to (or not) in the near future... the rapidly approaching dirty thirty, Summer time, and vacationing in Jamaica (definitely can't wait for that one).

Could it be?!?!

I was at TPF tonight and while we were stretching Jessica said that they were looking for another teacher. So I piped up immediately and said "I'll teach!" Wouldn't ya know she actually took me seriously and said YEAH!?!?!?! I can't even believe it. I might actually get to teach my very own class!! All of a sudden I feel like I just have sooooo much work to do to get ready. I so can't wait. I don't wanna get too excited yet though. Not until I actually have my first class. Now I HAVE to get back good... ASAP! Not sure what I'mma do about this sore wrist though. Might just have to suffer.

Well I just wanted to share the good news. I tried calling people and no one answered their phone so this was my only outlet. Gonna shut up about it now til it happens... God willing!

Animout ...

I'm going to try to keep this one short. So I was at the grocery store today during my lunch cause I really wanted a snack. Had it not been for my unwavering snack craving I would not have this little anecdote to share with you today, so next time you see her, thank my IFG for this one.

I'm in the pudding isle trying to find some pudding. Apparently I didn't find it quick enough because I was there for just enough time for someone to approach me. "Excuse me, miss" I hear. I look up surprised cause I couldda sworn I was in the isle alone. There standing in front of me is this random dude. I don't know where the heck he appeared from, but he was surely on stealth mode cause I didn't even register his presence until he spoke. He proceeds to ask me if I have a husband or a boyfriend. Now of course with that question, I know where this conversation is going. I look at him from head to toe and immediately know I am completely and totally uninterested, 100%. By now I would think that I would have learned to LIE when people like this ask me that question. Had I lied, the conversation would have ended right then and there. No story to tell, no jokes to be made, no laughs to be had... unfortunately my supremely scrupulous inner conscious implores me to tell the truth, so I do.

This random, who I later find out is named Roger, asks me if he can give me his number. I'm thinking...Do I want his number? Of course not. Am I going to call him? Hell no. CAN he give it to me? um, I guess he can if he wants to, although I don't see the point. But he doesn't know all that. So I'm just like, whatever. I didn't have my cell phone so I thought I was gonna get off. I think this dude is about to hand me a business card right? Wrong! I take the card, look at it, and I pause. This isn't a business card this is a... a bus transfer?!?!?! And why does he hand me bus transfer that ALREADY HAS HIS NAME AND NUMBER ON IT!?!?! Then he's like, yeah I'm riding the bus at the moment. Really? ya don't say? I never wouldda guessed that seeing as you just handed me a bus transfer with today's date on it. I didn't say that, but it's what I was thinking. But that's not the best part. Yes, there is more, but let's just pause here for a second. You just so happened to have your name and number already written down on your bus transfer of all things? Really? Ok, moving on...

Ever have someone say something to you that you have no words for? Well after Roger hands me the bus transfer, he tells me that the number on there is a shared number for where he's staying... at a halfway house.
((( 0_0 ))) ANIMOUT!

Hanging up the apron...

You know how if you have a pot on the stove and it's about to boil over, and just before it does, you uncover it and it calms back down. But if you leave it covered it gets to the point of boiling over again cause u really need to cut the heat? So I'm more likely to vent the lid a crack rather than just turn the heat off. And venting the lid just doesn't cut it. I need to turn off the heat. Just cut it off all together cause all it does is make the pot boil over, and the pot has been cooking for a while now. The food has been done a long time. To continue to cook it would be pointless because all that's going to be left is some burnt up food and a big ol mess. I probably need to just get out the kitchen all together. I should just go order some take out or throw something in the microwave. That really might be about all I'm good for.

But on the other hand, I kinda like the idea of cooking. I wanna cook. I just don't think I'm any good at it. I did read this one cook book one time. I never tried any of the recipes though. I don't even know if I had the right ingredients. At any rate, I think I'm done cooking for a while. Anything more than making a sandwich is too much for me.

CSD - Day 6 and 7

I didn't do CSD these days. I had had enough. I just wanted a sandwich, so I ate one. No more CSD for me.