I'll first start off by saying that as far as I know, there really is nothing physically wrong with me (mentally might be another issue, but I'm not going there today). That being said, sometimes I look around and I see people, some friends, some family members who have various types of medical or physical conditions and I wonder if that could be me one day. Whether it be high blood pressure, high cholesterol, over weight, cancer, limited physical ability etc. I ask myself how much of that is preventable? I know they weren't always like that so how did it get all the way there?
I understand that some things are genetic and maybe that is where some of my concern comes from. I have... well had an aunt. My father's sister. She was about my height and weighed easily over 200 lbs. She died in her 40's and was overweight pretty much as far back as I can remember her. Then there is my mother. She was a toothpick when I was growing up. So when I look at the women in my family I feel like physically I probably take more after my father's side and that makes me nervous. I love food (to the point where it's probably a problem) but I have a fear of getting fat cause I don't wanna die in my 40's.
I think I gain weight about three times faster than I'm able to lose it and I expect that won't get much better the older I get. A couple years ago I was close to 150, the heaviest I had ever been. I was absolutely miserable. None of my clothes fit. I wore the same 2 pair of pants to work every day because I refused to buy anything new in bigger sizes. I got winded going up the stairs. I couldn't say no to anything food. It was pretty bad. Then one day I realized that if I kept going at the rate I was even tho I wasn't fat yet I definitely would be really soon.
Now that I have this mile stone b-day looming over me I'm on this whole prevention kick. Supposedly it's all down hill from here but I'm really hoping that's not true. I have been battling my weight since I was in high school and if the fight were to end today I'd have to say I lose. But I really want to try and get this thing under control by April. So I have a little less than 7 months. I want to say I'm never going back to being 150, but I had said that before the last time I gained weight and got close to 140. Seems like every time I gain a lot of weight I gain more than I did the time before. Definitely not a good pattern to fall into.
I'm trying to set some short term attainable goals for myself. The first one being this 8k in a week and a half. After that maybe I'll try a 10k or perhaps I'll try and do one of those 60 or 90 day type of fitness programs. I'm thinking Chalean Extreme. I have Insanity and P90X and I don't really do either of them. I also need to find a workout buddy cause that would make things soooooo much easier. All the people I have tried to work out with up til now have not been able to stay consistent and I feel that consistency is the most important thing when it comes to working out.
Well we'll see how it goes.
